feeling with an abundence of hope, trapped inside this tiny voice. where are the days gone by? what am i doing here and why did i get here so fast and so quickly? i cannot remember where i was before or how my mind worked. i know i am living and moving and loving but here i do not know the meaning of gold. we are diamonds we cannot reach and we always will be. do not ask me why i have no answers. my mission is to search and to try and to learn but i cannot. i feel stuck already at twenty. i am in love with a man i love seeing him walk through the door and kissing him and holding him and everything he does for me but is there an end? what happens after this? i am in a store of longing. i long for what i do not have and when i have it there is a longing for something else, i only want to feel satisfied and happy with where i am. where am i going with this? there is nothing you can do about anybody elses actions only your own. i am only responsible for me, that is all.

i feel so disconnected from everything lately, i don't know what it is. i want to blame it on thinking too much but really i haven't been at all.
i don't know where i'm going or where i want to go.
i want to be more and i want to do more.

facebook is actually pretty depressing.
i wonder how we would be without the internet, i always wonder that.

there's so much i can't explain and i don't know if it's because i don't try or because i'm scared.
i'd really like to just talk it out, everything.

i'd like to learn more about the universe.
i gave in and got facebook, add me if you like

lost in translation is one of those films i never tire of, with all of it's simplicity.
i have a formspring.me for any questions!

i've never felt so many contradictory emotions as i have done since moving here. but it's okay. i like waking up with him and keeping him awake till the early hours talking about nothing in particular and annoying him with my bad singing. i know i have a lot to learn but i'm trying. it's the moments that matter.